So being torn between moving away and staying a townie... I can't decide. I have found that I could "possibly" attain a job in New York but would I want to work every day just to make my rent? Then there is Hawaii. Always looming that island is. It taunts me knowing that I would love nothing but to go there and live my life out. A couple months ago on Groupon I found this resort that also offers volunteer options. Kalani. Thinking about it back then I could have never done so. Dad. Jimmy. And also the fact that I didn't have money saved. I have recently revisited this place's website. The site is pulled up on my tabs waiting for me to finish the application. Why do I have to ask for permission? Or not permission but feeling guilty. I'm going to do it. Ripped that hypothetical bandaid off. I have only my mind to lose. ...And I just did it. Sent.